I don’t know what exactly you asking me to go read your blog means. On the one hand, it makes me hopeful that we could be close again and maybe things would go back to what they once were, but honestly that’s just a pipe dream because neither you nor me are who we were. I mean, here you are talking about sex and I haven’t even had my first kiss! Your life seems almost like a movie to me. And you hurt me a lot by not caring at all and bothering about me. So maybe its just my weakness, or perhaps, the best part of my personality, that I always take people back, let them in again and give them a hundred chances to redeem themselves; that I accept that most of the time people aren’t going to want to redeem themselves or say they are sorry for hurting me. I guess that’s just who I am. But this time, I know I won’t get detached or even vulnerable because I’ve gotten over you, so to speak, and I’ve also lost a lot of respect for you at various times. Life can be so strange, gratifying, hurtful, scary, exhilarating at all the times that we least expect it. Just like I can’t depend on much stability in life, I can’t depend on much stability from you.